By the second day, the song lyrics had faded, but in their place came darker irritations. Gradually, I started to become aware of a young man sitting just behind me and to the left. I had noticed him when he first entered the mediation hall, and had felt a flash of annoyance at the time: something about him, especially his beard, had struck me as too calculatedly dishevelled, as if he were trying to make a statement. Now his audible breathing was starting to irritate me, too. It seemed studied, unnatural, somehow theatrical. My irritation slowly intensified - a reaction that struck me as entirely reasonable and proportionate at the time. It was all beginning to feel like a personal attack. How much contempt must the bearded meditator have for me, I seethed silently, deliberately to decide to ruin the serenity of my meditation by behaving so obnoxiously? Experienced retreat-goers, it turns out, have a term for this phenomenon. The call it 'vipassana vendetta'. In the stillness tiny irritations become magnified into full-blown hate campaigns; the mind is so conditioned to attaching to storylines that it seizes upon whatever's available. Being on retreat had temporarily separated me from all the real causes of distress in my life, and so, apparently, I was inventing new ones. As I shuffled to my narrow bed that evening, I was still smarting about the loud-breathing man. I did let go of the vendetta eventually - but only because I'd fallen into an exhausted and dreamless sleep

The part of thinking that’s easy to handle is the part that works by analogy with speech. Thinking in words, speaking our thoughts internally, projects an auditorium inside our skulls. Dark or bright, a shadow theater or a stage scorched by klieg lights, here we try out voices, including the voice we have settled on as the familiar sound of our identity, although it may not be what other people hear when we speak aloud. But that is the topmost of the linguistic processes going on in the mind. Beneath the auditorium runs a continuous river of thought that not only is soundless but is not ordered so it can be spoken. For obvious reasons, describing it is difficult. If I dip experimentally into the wordless flow, and then try to recall the sensations of it, I have the impression of a state in which grammar is present – for when I think like this I am certainly construing lucid relationships between different kinds of meaning, and making sense of the world by distinguishing between (for a start) objects and actions – but thought there are so to speak nounlike and verblike concentrations in the flow, I do not solidify them, I do not break them off into word-sized units. Are there pictures? Yes, but I am not watching a slide show, the images do not come in units either. Sometimes there’s a visual turbulence – rapid, tumbling, propelled – that doesn’t resolve into anything like the outlines of separate images. Sometimes one image, like a key, will hold steady while a whole train of wordless thoughts flows from its start to its finish. A mountain. A closed box. A rusty hinge.

Man’s mind is his basic tool of survival. Life is given to him, survival is not. His body is given to him, its sustenance is not. His mind is given to him, its content is not. To remain alive, he must act, and before he can act he must know the nature and purpose of his action. He cannot obtain his food without a knowledge of food and of the way to obtain it. He cannot dig a ditch – or build a cyclotron – without a knowledge of his aim and of the means to achieve it. To remain alive, he must think.“But to think is an act of choice. The key to what you so recklessly call ‘human nature,’ the open secret you live with, yet dread to name, is the fact that man is a being of volitional consciousness. Reason does not work automatically; thinking is not a mechanical process; the connections of logic are not made by instinct. The function of your stomach, lungs, or heart is automatic; the function of your mind is not. In any hour and issue of your life, you are free to think or to evade that effort. But you are not free to escape from your nature, from the fact that reason is your means of survival – so that for you, who are a human being, the question ‘to be or not to be’ is the question ‘to think or not to think.’ . . . “Man has no automatic code of survival. His particular distinction from all other living species is the necessity to act in the face of alternatives by means of volitional choice. . . Man must obtain his knowledge and choose his actions by a process of thinking, which nature will not force him to perform. Man has the power to act as his own destroyer – and that is the way he has acted through most of his history (pages 1012-1013).

هل انت لا تفكر سلبيا أبدا و لا تشعر بالإحباط أبدا ؟طبعا أشعر , و لكنني لا اترك هذا التفكير يسيطر علي , و لكن أبحث عن اسبابه و اكتبها ثم أقرأها و كأنني بعيد تماما عن الموضوع لكي أتعلم منها الدرس الموجود في حياتي , ثم أعمل على التغيير من داخلي أولا ثم في الخارج و بذلك لو حدث أن تكررت هذه التجربة مرة أخرى أكون انا قد تدربت على التعامل معها و حلها .

At present, the successful office-seeker is a good deal like the center of the earth; he weighs nothing himself, but draws everything else to him. There are so many societies, so many churches, so many isms, that it is almost impossible for an independent man to succeed in a political career. Candidates are forced to pretend that they are catholics with protestant proclivities, or christians with liberal tendencies, or temperance men who now and then take a glass of wine, or, that although not members of any church their wives are, and that they subscribe liberally to all. The result of all this is that we reward hypocrisy and elect men entirely destitute of real principle; and this will never change until the people become grand enough to allow each other to do their own thinking.Our government should be entirely and purely secular. The religious views of a candidate should be kept entirely out of sight. He should not be compelled to give his opinion as to the inspiration of the bible, the propriety of infant baptism, or the immaculate conception. All these things are private and personal. The people ought to be wise enough to select as their officers men who know something of political affairs, who comprehend the present greatness, and clearly perceive the future grandeur of our country. If we were in a storm at sea, with deck wave-washed and masts strained and bent with storm, and it was necessary to reef the top sail, we certainly would not ask the brave sailor who volunteered to go aloft, what his opinion was on the five points of Calvinism. Our government has nothing to do with religion. It is neither christian nor pagan; it is secular. But as long as the people persist in voting for or against men on account of their religious views, just so long will hypocrisy hold place and power. Just so long will the candidates crawl in the dust—hide their opinions, flatter those with whom they differ, pretend to agree with those whom they despise; and just so long will honest men be trampled under foot.

قانون الشريعة: بعدما قيل لهم أن الشريعة تجسد المثل الاسلامية العلياافترض غالبية المسلمين أن الشريعة مقدسة...يكتب ضياء الدين ساردار "ان القسم الأعظم من الشريعة ما هو الا الرأي الفقهي لفقهاء كلاسيكيين هذا هو السبب في أنه كلما فرضت الشريعة خارج سياق الزمن الذي وضعت فيه تكتسب المجتمعات الاسلامية احساسا قروسطيا.هذا هو ما نشهده في السعودية، ايران، السودان، افغانستان

_ان الاحاسيس هي وقود الانسان , و هي رد فعل طبيعي لما يحدث بداخلنا من أفكار و ملفات ذهنية , و من نعم الله سبحانه ة تعالى علينا ان جعلنا نعرف معنى كل احساس مهما كان سواء كان احساسا ايجابيا كالحب و الحنان و السعادة و الهدوء و الاسترخاء , أو احساسا سلبيا مثل الغضب و الغيرة و الكره و الحقد , و اعطانا الله سبحانه و تعالى القدرة على التحكم في أفكارنا و قال لنا عز و جل : (( ان الله لا يغير ما بقوم حتى يغيروا ما بأنفسهم))

وسالت نفسي: لم لا يكتس الشجر كل عام جنسا من الورق ، فإذا اخضر هذا العام.. احمر من قابل ، ثم يصفر في الذي بعده ، ثم يكتسي من الوشي الأزرق في الذي يتلوه ، ثم يطلع في الديباج الأسود وهلم إلى عدد الألوان خالصة أو متمازجة؟؟..أذلك لأن الطبيعة عاجزة عن التفنن ، أم لأنها شحيحة مقتصدة ؟أم لأن تركيب العام.. قائم على أن تبقى الحقيقة قائمة كما هي لا تتغير ، أم لأن كل شيء يستمر على وتيرة. واحدة ليظهر جانبا معينا من حكمة الله؟ فينشئ جانبا معينا من ذوق الإنسان وفكره ، أم العالم كله كلمات صريحة تقول لهذا الإنسان :...إنك أنت وحدك المتقلب المتلون؟.

_التفكير السلبي يبحث و يفكر في السلبيات التي حدثت في الماضي و يقلق و يخاف من المستقبل , و يعيش الحاضر بأحاسيس سلبية و اعتقادات سلبية تجعل حياته سلسلة من التحديات و المشاكل . و العجيب ان الشخص الذي يفكر بطريقة سلبية عنده قدرة خيالية في العثور على السلبيات في أي شيء حتى و لو كان ايجابيا ,, هناك بعض الناس يغير من هذا الوضع و يتوكل على الله سبحانه و تعالى فيجد له المولى مخرجا , و لكن هناك البعض الذي يستمر بالتفكير في هذه الطريقة فتجده يعيش معظم أيامه في تعاسة و صعوبات , و لو حدث أنه شعر بالسعادة فهو يشك فيها أو يقلق منها حتى يحوّلها مرة أخرى الى تحدّ .